Who am I?
Hi! I am Nalin Bakshi, a young Indian who is a biker (motorcyclist) at heart. I am a bikenomad and between rides I do go to a place which normal people call office (Well I have to earn to feed my bike on time).
Born in a piscean month, I was raised to be honest, sincere, loyal, obedient etc. All the punch words which are only to be used orally but not to follow. This I learned later from life, but still find it hard to follow against them. I was born smart and I do blame the education for ruining me (yeah! I copied that line from a T-Shirt quote).
My biggest problem is that I am an emotional person. So every time I am hurt (emotionally) I go silent. I don’t talk much and keep to myself. And this has been the reason for my own undoing
U-Turn in life
So I was this smart guy, I would hardly study 3 days and top the exam, play a game and get on beating people at it. But life was mean to my soft heart. Change in school meant that I lost my friends and found hard to adjust with under performing kids. Dad’s job profile meant I couldn’t go out much to play. All I could do was play in my society where there was hardly anyone to play with. I top or not – no one seemed to care. Much like Ishaan from the movie Taare Zameen Pe. I was told not to become the monitor of the class, not to become group captain, not to try this and the list kept growing. For me it meant ” U can do it, but don’t do it”. Losing opportunity just became part of my life. And that’s what kept happening. I lost till I couldn’t lose anymore. Studies, games, music, painting….. I lost in all. From a winner to a loser. People only saw me plunge but why was I falling – no one seemed to bother.
The U turn back
Things were bad, I was a lost kid – good for nothing. Dad finally had time in his hand- he had given a lot to the job and country and now he was back home. He looked at me and wondered what was wrong. One day he came to me and patted on my back saying “Go do what you want to do, I am here for you”. That day was the day when I braked hard on my plunging life.
The Journey Up
I was in college and not winning. There was no source of inspiration in life. When I looked at the journey up-ahead I saw a lost battle. I cried. And I cried for a bike. Somehow I believed that this is one thing I needed to run. After a lot of fights at home, and the first time in my life with dad. I finally got a Pulsar 180, the red beast.
The bike came as a milestone for me, and failure was not an option any more. There was a lot of ground to cover. Broken confidence, lost miles, memories of lost battles. It was time to fight back up.
The first mentor
I came to pune for my MCA, my cousin Vibhu also came here from banglore after he switched his job. And I shifted with him. Frankly saying, staying with him was not that enthusiastic because it was clear – “his house, his rules”. But he took care of me. He changed my mind set; “if you want to get something – then you have to go get it”. Even today he pushes me, I think he is making me tough.
I am back on the highway
I look at my life and finally see that I have taken out the knots in my life, I know where I stand and what I want to do. I want to run, run faster , harder .There are a lot of people I have to give back – my dad, my sis, Vibhu, mom, cousins – who mean a lot to me, old friends, uncle’s – ants and the country.
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